It is what it ain't

My morning meeting with my weight loss guide team, "The Bad-ass Body Brigade" was not what I expected it to be.

I thought I would get some advice about getting off my butt and exercising more.  Boy was I wrong.  As I sat and typed a conversation with them (that is how I do it by the way-I connect and then I write or type) they told me I needed to check in with my feelings.

Oh God, no, not those feelings!!!  I mean I don't wanna look at the stuff I don't wanna look at.  You know what I mean?  The relationships that aren't working as well as they could, the things I am ignoring in other areas of my life.  That stuff!!

I just want you guys to give me eating and moving advice.  Nope, not today. So after I had a bit of a mental temper tantrum, I began to do some writing.  I asked myself how I felt in general with all areas of my life, not just my body.  It led me to writing a letter to my husband.  I basically held nothing back in that letter, got it all out. 

Now the guidance I received was for me to dive in and not necessarily to confront anyone.  There is a difference here.  I usually try to save my soapbox rants for my journal.  I really do try not to go off on people.  Sometimes the act of just getting it all out of my mind, body and spirit goes a very long way to overall balance.

And sometimes you need to get your head out of the sand and have a talk with someone.  Today was about me getting it all out on paper.  It allowed me to look at the situation I was choosing to ignore, how I really felt about it, and all the nasty and totally immature things I wanted to say without hurting anyone's feelings.

I know a conversation is coming with my husband, but I also know it will be from a place of love and not total crazy-town because I took the time to check in and get it out.

My big takeaway from my morning meeting is that things aren't black and white, and weight issues are complex and intertwined in all areas of your life.  You cannot address one aspect and expect to release weight in a balanced and healthy way. 

You gotta deal with the stuff you have been sweeping under the rug.  Look at it.  Sit with it.  Love it.  And then let is go as you move into the space of self love and forgiveness (of self).