Hello most awesome of awesome peeps. I hope this rambling finds you well. I have spent the last week with my family including my in-laws who are visiting for a few weeks. While taking some time to un-plug and relax a bit has been great, I have noticed something very interesting about myself.
I have noticed that no matter how much spiritual work I have done on myself, the ones closest to me mirror my shit (you know all that stuff I thought I worked on but apparently didn't). Totally sucks when you realize you still have your hang ups and baggage and all those buttons that are so easily pushed by your loved ones. Ugh!
However, this time I find I have caught myself a bit quicker. Noticing the buttons being pushed, has given me the opportunity to take a look at why I am so annoyed, frustrated, and all those goodies. I have learned to take a step back and laugh at myself for one thing. Boy I can get all caught up with this stuff. I also have the opportunity to forgive myself for getting all caught up. Just the act of telling my ego self that I am sorry for being such a poo poo head, releases some of the pent up anxiety I am feeling.
Another thing I have noticed is that I need to give myself time alone to just be with my own energy. I need it. I get all grumpy pants if I don't have time alone (like a lot of it actually). I just need it, and knowing this and allowing myself this gift, helps everyone in my home.
I tell you this because sometimes I think we spiritual seekers/healers feel that we have to be above all the pettiness of life; like we have to be calm and cool and collected only thinking positive thoughts all the freaking time. It's like this weird internal pressure to be 'Spirit-like". I am a soul having a human experience, and I am sassy as shit. I live here on planet Earth at this time. I experience the good, the bad and the ugly. None of it is wrong. There is no one way to be, to experience, to think or feel. It's all good. We learn and grow and experience and yippee yahoo for that!
Instead of judging ourselves so harshly for what we think we "should" be, feel and do, I invite you to just notice what comes up. Coming from a place of, "Isn't that interesting that my buttons are being pushed?" instead of judging those lower vibrations, will serve you well. So for today, notice if anything annoys you or pushes your buttons. Just notice. Then forgive yourself. Let it go and move on. We are perfectly imperfect souls and that is perfect! Until next time.....Hop on over to Facebook and let me know how you are doing.
Caroline Nixon is
an intuitive healer and teacher who wrote two books about what she knows.