Yesterday was kinda emotional for me personally. I learned while scrolling on Facebook that a friend of mine I went to college with died. What a thing to scroll and see. We hadn't been close in over 20 years, but I kept up with her a bit via social media.
I knew she had been battling (for lack of a better word) with breast cancer for a while. Beating it, then having it come back harder and faster. I remember reaching out to her a year or so ago with a website that offered a different approach to treating/healing cancer, but she never responded. And that was okay with me. We are all on our own journey and experience what we choose to experience.
Even being the spiritual person that I am and knowing that we never truly die, it still got me as I read the kind words of her close friends and family about her passing. She has kids close to the same age as mine. My heart goes out to them for sure.
And within a few minutes (literally) of reading about her passing, I stumbled across an article in the paper about the teacher from my son's school who was arrested a few short weeks ago for indecent liberties with a minor. They have discovered much more about him and that his behavior may have been going on for a long, long time. Now 10 kids have come forward. It hurts my heart to think that one person can cause so much pain to kids no less.
As I said, yesterday was kinda rough in the emotions department. It is okay for me to feel the huge range of emotions that I am feeling. It is quite healthy in fact. I go from being sad to mad in an instant.
I have empathy for the teacher and I want to kill him all in the same breath. I feel sad for the loss of an old friend and I wonder if she could have beaten the cancer had she taken my advice. I will never know exactly what either of these people were thinking, feeling, experiencing in their lives.
All I want to do is hug my kids and live each moment to the fullest. You only have this moment to be. We never really know what will happen in the future. I am choosing to be here more than not. Instead of worrying about the future, how about we all just take a breath and enjoy the air we are inhaling?
Caroline Nixon is
an intuitive healer and teacher who wrote two books about what she knows.